Yet Again (2)

Well, I had my friend go stealth mode again, and you guys aren't going to believe this. Lane 30 AGAIN! I'm so fucking sick of this. I was really angry earlier, but I've calmed down some. I'm still really pissed, and I want to just explode on the head cashiers for doing this to me.

Am I a piece of shit or what? What did I honestly do to deserve this? Renae opened, Krista is mid-day, and Karen closes. I don't want to be on that lane. It's gonna be so fucking busy today because there is a million things going on in town. If they make me go on that lane, I'm gonna act just as childish as they are and not speak to them. I really don't want to hear their bullshit. Just my luck, I'll be the only one on the green side while they put everyone else on lanes 1-16 just to spite me. I can honestly say I wouldn't be surprised it it did happen although it never will. They just don't people next to me because I'm "too much fun." Since when is that a bad thing? I do my job and everything, but I also like to talk to my fellow team members. And if that's wrong, I don't want to work with Target anymore.

But, I do get to vent on our annual store survey. I guess they picked the wrong day to fuck with me. Not like they don't fish out the bad responses anyway. Lies and deception. That's all my store is. Well, I'm not going to be fast, fun, and friendly today, and who can blame me? It's hard to put on a fake-ass smile when you know your getting treated like shit. I was on lane 30 on Thursday, so I'm not going to let it fly. I had a similar conversation with Krista a long time ago about the exact same thing. For my first 11 months there, I was always on lanes 30 or 31, and usually a breaker once a month. Then I always had 1 blue side shift every now and again. That was back when I ONLY cashiered, so as you can see it took a real toll on me. I bitched her out saying I was sick of it. I understand I WILL be over there every now and again, but every single shift!? That's cruel and unusual punishment. These people are sick. They don't care about you, they could really care less if you got ran over by a car. I have never met such terrible people as these. Sharon especially. But after that talk with Krista, I was hardly on the green side. That lasted about 2 weeks. But then for some strange reason everything got fair. No one played favorites or anything. That lasted until the beginning of this year. I was still mostly at GS, so I couldn't really notice it, but now that I'm rarely up there, I can totally see it. What sense does it make to have breakers that don't know how to do operator, GS, and Food Ave breaks? I don't have a college degree (yet) but I can still see plain as day that this isn't the way to go.

Things are back in the rut again. The favorites are always breakers or on the blue side, and the people they hate are on the green side. It may sound like I'm blowing this out of proportion, but sadly, this is how things really are.

Truthfully, I'm not going to ask for Target cards today. I don't care. They don't deserve it. Why should I bust my ass for you when all you do is treat me like shit? Answer me that. Of course it's part of my job, but it's part of your job to treat me with some fucking respect. You may not like me, but you shouldn't act on that.

If they think I had an attitude problem before, they haven't seen shit yet. The shit will hit the fan, and I very well could get fired soon. I don't care. You do not treat people this way and get away with it.

I'm too much of a "free-thinker" for Target. That's how they see it anyways. I'll keep you updated.