OH MY FUCKING GOD!

Today HAD to be the worst day I had in a while. I felt so god damn depressed because of the way everyone was treating me. I had SO many rude guests, and Krista and her usual bitchy self didn't make things better. First of all, I'm not a team trainer. I didn't apply to be one, but they constantly RUB IT IN MY FACE. Just today Sharon said oh they are having a pizza party for team trainers today. OK great, but you needed to tell me why? So, there are people that have been hired AFTER me that are going to be team trainers. So basically it'll look like I'm less intelligent than everyone else. Fuck them, and you too Krista! No one likes your bitchy attitude! So anyways, Krista picked Melissa Ro to be the head cashier for her break. Why can't I do it? That REALLY hurts my feelings that Krista said I wasn't 'ready' to do it, and that I have a bad attitude that she doesn't want to 'rub off onto the cashiers.' And she told me to smile more. I'm not the fucking kind of person that smiles for no god damn reason! And especially after you treat me like shit? I really just want to quit. Why can't I give the head cashier a break? That pisses me off the most. I really need to talk with someone about that, but no one will care. Maybe it's just time I leave for somewhere where I'm treated like a fucking human. Why should I have to ask to be treated nicely!? I thought it was common sense. But working for Target, you learn VERY quickly that they lack compassion for anything except money.

I got reamed out over the phone because this dumb bitch forgot her bag there. She wanted ME to have her shit ready when she came in. It was 2 fuckin pieces of meat! We logged it right away and sent it back to that department so it wouldn't spoil. So she freaked out on me because of that, and I told her she could bring in her receipt and we'll just give her the cash back for the items. She just said, "Oh thanks for the special treatment!" and hung up. FUCK HER!

Then there was these 2 canucks that came in. They wanted to return a george foreman grill without a receipt. They didn't have the box or anything. So I told them they would have to go back and see if we still carried THE EXACT SAME THING so I could have some numbers for it. Of course when they get back, they bring up a TOTALLY different one. I tell them that without a receipt and no numbers, I couldn't do anything for them. The old man FREAKED and started yelling that "target should be responsible for the items it sells!" and "you have a poor customer service policy" and other bullshit. I just gave them the manufacturer's number and sent them away.

Great! I get to do this tomorrow too! Please oh please make my life even more of a living hell. All I know is that on the reason for leaving line, I will write "I'm sick of being treated like shit, and also because of Lucy and Krista." Why can't I just quit already!? I swear there is some strange thing that is keeping me form leaving. I have some good friends there, but now most of them have left, and tons of newbies are filling their slots.

I wonder if it's too late to apply for a team trainer. Probably, since they did the training today. Even if I did apply, they probably wouldn't have let me do it anyway just because Lucy doesn't like me. She'd put some bullshit reason. I really want to see my review, if it's really bad, I'm going to quit on the spot. It's just hard to go into work each day when you know you aren't valued as a team member. I've been stabbed SO many times in the back by that place, and all I want is to be respected and to be able to do things my peers are doing. I've been there for 2 years now, and I'm still not allowed to do things that people that are new are doing. I'm talikng about giving head cashiers breaks, learning how to do operator, and training in someone. I've buddy trained a total of 3 people in my whole 2 years there. Most people can't even keep track of how many times they've done it. I don't see what I'm doing wrong here, and no one will tell me what's going on. Maybe they are trying to get rid of me because I stand up for myself. I'm not a personal carpet for those in higher positions. I don't know what to do, I guess I'll wait til my review and go from there.

Peace Out!