Target Plays Dirty

I'm sure the title is no surprise to anyone, but I have been recently lied to by the ETL-GS, or the 'main' boss for the front end. I saw Lucy on Sunday, and I asked her if she got my note that I was interested in 1 hour photo. Well, she said she had already hired 5 people, but was still deciding on 6 employees to cross-train over there for breaks. The way she said it I knew it wasn't going to be me, she just rolled the words out of her mouth like a robot. I also know she doesn't like me, so that wasn't going to help. But, Lucy told one of my friends THEY would get cross-trained over there. Ok, now I'm pissed. I'm not saying I'm more deserving then my friend, but I'm mad that Lucy is telling everyone who she has picked when she told me she was still deciding. When I asked her, it sounded like she had already made up her mind. Thanks.

The *only* bad thing about me is that yes, I can have a bad attitude at times, but it doesn't come from thin air. Usually my bad attitude comes from the way these people treat me. Always on the green side? Yes, it pisses me off. Why wouldn't it? When I'm in Guest Service I have the best attitude because that is my favorite place to work, and I only complain about bad guests. I may have a bad attitude sometimes, but I make up for it with my work ethic. I bust my ass at work. I am one of the best cashiers (speedwise), and I rarely have to deal with head cashiers because I know my shit. I know multiple departments in the store and I pick up things easily. I've worked in these departments: Cashier, Guest Service, Food Ave, Operator, Electronics, and Salesfloor.

Now I'm interested to see who Lucy has picked. I would pick people that have been there the longest. My friend has been there longer than me, so I'm ok with them working over there. What will really piss me off is if some newbie gets to cross-train over there. That's just not fair. Only time will tell. When the newbies get picked, it makes me feel like shit because it basically means that they are doing a better job than me. It's also like getting picked last for a kickball team in school. It hurts. The last thing that made me feel good was getting to work in Guest Service. Even then I had to fight for it. That was also 1.5 years ago. Since then, I haven't had anyone offer any position elsewhere because of the job I was doing. As it sits now, I'm hurt by getting lied to. I still had my hopes up when Lucy told me she was still deciding, but they were smashed when my friend told me they got picked. I don't like getting lied to. Well, I work tomorrow, and there is still a chance for her to say I got picked too. Otherwise, they ain't seen nothing yet.

Now as for other things that have been pissing me off. I'm never a breaker. Never. I think I have been a breaker 2-3 times since the day after Thanksgiving. Why does it piss me off? Because they schedule newer cashiers that don't know other departments as breakers. So when it comes time for a Guest Service, Food Ave, or Operator break, they come get me off my lane to go do it. How about you put me as a fucking breaker? I'm getting so fucking sick of Target. So now I'm going to bitch that I should get to be a breaker because I know the areas for breaks. If not, they shouldn't ask me to do breaks if I'm on a lane. Hell yeah, I want to get off my lane, but if this is the only way they are gonna learn, then so be it.

I've also gotten majorly chewed out almost every single day for not getting a Target card. Like it's my fault. I ask everyone possible at GS (because that's where I have been when getting bitched out) but people say no to me. Heidi can ask the same person and they will say yes. I'm just easier to say no to, and that's not something I can control. I haven't got a Target card this month, and only got one last month. I'm trying my best, but I still get reamed out.

I'm never good enough. Never. Every little perk I get, they make me feel guilty about it as though I don't deserve it. Maybe it is time to just let this job go because I've NEVER felt like a team 'member.' At least I certainly am not treated as one.

Well, tomorrow I start 6 days in a row. Great, that is just what I need right now. They even called me today to work. Umm...FUCK NO! I don't care if I'm the only person you need, I'm not coming in. This weekend is gonna suck because it's a major Canadian holiday. Just fucking great. Now I can get treated like shit by management AND guests.

Tonight I'm volunteering with Target to clean up our adopted road. There is only going to be 3 level ones, and the rest are team leads or LODs. They better give me a volunteer shirt. I need a new Target shirt.

Well, have a better rest of the week than I will. I'm sure this blog will hear all about it.